More to say

And yes, here I am, i have more to say.

Remember last time I talked about professional cadgers on the street. Mad, sympathy, guilty... i don't know what I am supposed to feel anymore. Therefore, since I spent the whole weekend in volleyball and missed the sunday mass, I went for a confession and told the father about this confusion. Asking for help from the Holy spirit would be one of my solutions. Asking the Holy spirit to give me this feeling of pitiness for those who suffered from poor. I gave out the fries from harvey's to the poor, since I couldn't get too full before practice.

I left this entry behind for a little too long. I wish I still remember what I wanted to say.

20 days

Ever since my laptop died, and school's finished, i really have to make time for this blog. And so, since the last blog, it's almost 20 days.

Within these 20 days, there were phoenix cup, 4-4 beach tourny, asuka's party and tigers' poker tourny for tigers. There was one faith sharing and one singspiration for yosac. And there was volunteer lunch at TGH.

We came 2nd at the phoenix cup. We played well and most importantly, we had so much fun together. Although we didn't get a chance to beat our rival team, we definitely improved through all these experience. We are proud of ourselves for sure. Man, 11 hours of volleyball was really tiring.

4-4 beach tourny was a blast. I got a chance to play with mimi, anthony, ron and ross. We came second, as usual lol. The weather wasn't very nice at the beginning but it got better in the afternoon. Man, 8 hours of beach volleyball was really tiring.

The anatomy final exam was brutal. BRUTAL!!! It's not like i didn't study or anything, but I don't think dr. wiley really had to put the trickiest questions in the exam. the written exam worth 30% and i really did crap on it. the practical worth 15% and why 15%? i did better on the practical. man... i am scared

so, alen came back from dubai and he gave me a call last friday. From him, I found out that ross, my ex coworker was looking for me. He told me that a doctor from downtown needed someone to operate her bioflex machine. He gave me the doc's number and so i called. i emailed my resume monday at noon, but they didn't call me for the whole day, not the next day either. I was so nervous. I told colin about it, starting to wonder if my resume is good enough or not. and finally i checked my email. The doctor replied my email. she was away for the week and would like to meet me next week. whooho... what a relief. however, the nervous level increase to another stage, the interview nervous!! Ahhhhhhh.....

I was going to TGH from TWH on thursday. When the shuttle bus stopped in front of queen's park station, someone looked really familiar walked across university. the bus turned, i turned my head as well, it's him, nomis. if it's not him, he is a person looked exactly the same as nomis. I recognized his back, his hair and the way he walks. Black pants, white collar with a tie, i guess that's how a lawyer dresses. It's him. I am glad he does just fine right now, starting his own business. He looks happy, not stressful at all. thank God for that.

Rebuild. why rebuild? my ex bf was trying to talk to me again. Apparently he doesn't think there is any friendship between us that now he is coming to rebuild it. but on my side, i would say, he is coming to enforce it. Or is it just me who is assuming there is friendship between us? I have to admit that our relationship long time ago wasn't built upon a strong basis of friendship. therefore, after the break up, there was nothing. and now, he is coming to rebuild. I am sorry, i just found that funny cos i seriously don't think it's that important to address the reason of talking to me. Or do you need a reason to share your life to a friend?

okay this entry is long enough although i really have more to say........ yes, more to say....

Punishment

My first punishment for yesterday's entry -----> a cut on my right thumb, along my I proximal phalanges. A deep cut. I screamed. Why did I wash the knife for my sister? Why didn't put on the gloves before kitchen cleaning? Why? Why? Why?

EXAM's coming, put down your Angels and Demons and start studying girl.

Histology. Omg. There is female reproductive system tomorrow. I hope it's not going to be super boring. The lab session yesterday was pretty good. At least I've got my questions answered. When I didn't know what the heck I am looking at, and how to differentiate different cells, I got really frustrated. And I will cry. That's what happened in the histology labs last year. But Neil was there all the time yesterday. I was talking to Zhia the other day. He is super hyper lol, which makes him a very good TA to bug. I was like, let's bombard his email. Zhia said, you do that so he gets pissed off at you. LoL

what an unmerciful side of me

Okay, I feel super mean before I write this entry. I shouldn't feel that way but the fact that they are there really annoys me.

Can anybody tell me why are there professional cadger on the street, standing at the same place every single day? And there are shifts. At a different time of the day, a different person is standing there, sticking out his hand and "have a good day" you. I don't know what to do with them. I don't go to church with my wallet unless it's a friday. On fridays, I take my money with me for the church. They stand right in front of the church. What a good working site!!! Father always says we should never say no to people who ask, either spiritually or materially. But there are just there every single day. Somehow I finally understand what my parents always say, some people will make use of people's sympathetic nature and take advantage of it. How much am I going to give them? Don't they have anything better to do during the day? Find yourself a living man.

After Da Vinci Code, I am reading Angels and Demons right now. I really like this book as well, although I have only read around 100 pages. Up to this point, it gives me an impression that the best way to prove Genesis is science. How nice! "Let there be light."

We came across the male reproductive system today. This is actually the first time I have fun in a reproductive histology class. It's funny how the professor actually uses the analogy to describe the spermatozoa entering the epididymis from the testicles. So, when there are so many passengers standing at St George station, the train has never come, nobody shuts off the esculator, people will just keep coming. And the passengers on the platform get pushed forward until ...... well ...... When the spermatozoa get pushed to the epididymis, they have their swimming lessons. At the beginning of the epididymis, they don't swim at all when you look under the microscope. In the middle segment, they probably swim in circles. At the end of it, they graduate cos they can swim in straight lines finally, entering the Ductus Deferens. Too funny.

Have to read Harry Potter next. And Notebook.

Patio Party

Asian volleyball teams from Toronto held a patio party last saturday fundraising for the labour day tournment. Asuka and I went together because I knew I would recognize anybody if I went alone. I had an eagerness to leave after just half an hour. I still don't understand how people can enjoy this kind of party. Is this just a place for people to get to know each other? What if I am not very interested in meeting people at all? Then my friend's friends got wasted. I guess that was the only time I had fun for the whole night cos they acted really stupid haha. My legs were sore so I found a rail to lean on. I was just sitting there, having my cranberry vodka, nobody was talking although sean, Elvia's friend was standing right in front of me. After a while, he was like "are you bored?" Of course I am bored what are you thinking? "So, what can I do to make you feel better?" Oh my goodness, what a deja vu! Mladin, April 9th. Sean got me another drink, trying to help me checking out the guys. He pointed to some of them lol, they were either too short or too stupid. I mean for real, Eugene, it doesn't take long to figure out the idiocy right there. We left at around 3:30am, since Herbie was so wasted. And he had practice at 11:30am lol.

How exactly do sluts look like? I was thinking, what do they do to make them sluts? Or being slutty? I saw some at the party. Although no one has ever told me about the definition of sluts, I knew they MUST be. It makes me wanna puke. But the guys probably had the sweetest taste ever. ewww....

My ankle is 'bout 80% right now. I can play with the ankle brace on. That ankle brace works magic man! And I am going to play on aug 14th, the 4-4 beach tourny. I was surprised mimi actually invited me to play. So, I will have ron, anthony, rodrick, mimi and myself on the same team. Hopefully the weather would be nice on sunday.

Lots to do

It wasn't too excited today, and didn't feel like writing at all.

I played some light vball today to see how my ankle is recovering. It's not 100% yet, but I was able to do some really light drills. So may be it was a good idea that steph and I don't enter the tournament on saturday.

Hockey season is back!!! It's too excited!!! However, WHAT are you doing John Ferguson? While every other team is signing free agents, Jeff O'Neil is the only player we signed. And Peter Forsberg is playing for the flyers, wtf?!

So I found out that I couldn't make the volunteering night next monday because of the choir committee meeting. I am a little disappointed because I am pretty sure that bert is going to be there. And I just found out that I couldn't participate in the 4-4 beach tourny on August 14th because fo the members' meeting at church. Oh man, the last thing I found out is that, I haven't studied at all and my schedule is packed for the next couple of weeks.

Good time @ da BEACH

I had a splendid day yesterday. The tigers team went to the beach together. I was glad that I had a chance to hang out with them although my ankle was still injured. The weather was fantastic. Anthony and Ron were there and we met Bowie. It was funny because I knew Bowie has the same birthday as I do before he gets to know what I am. I saw Jenson but again, I don't know why I didn't say hi to him. It was probably me, I was too worried if the other person wouldn't remember who the heck I am.

After spending a couple hours in the sun, Elvia and Asuka came to my apartment for the pool. I had a good time and I though both Asuka and I had a very good session of therapeutic swimming for our ankles. My ankle feels better and hopefully I could play again by the end of this week.

It was Monday volunteering night. I went although it was civil holiday for Canada. There won't be less sick people just because it's a holiday right? So I saw Colin. He missed two weeks in a row. Then I found he was suffered from back pain for the past two weeks. Poor thing. We had so much fun together cos we spent most of the time joking around. And I had to tell him that story with Shehzy cos he was right there last night. I just didn't want to go inside at all simply because I didn't know what to say to him. Disappointment...just a little.... Bert wasn't there. But both of the clerks and I were talking about him. I can't believe Flod actually asked him if he has a girlfriend. I was like what? I thought she was just gonna ask him how old he is. And it turned out that bert was too embarassed to answer this question. He pretended he has never heard the question. Too funny lol. Then I told Flod not to mention my name to him, EVER. Cos I don't want him to think that I was the one who wants to know if he has a gf. Man..i don't think i would be able to talk to him ever again.

Me and Colin went to bubble tea on our way to bloor. We were discussing what he was going to get for almost the whole shift. He couldn't decide cos I totally thought he was picky. When we got there, he picked green apple green tea, surprisingly. Green apple green tea. Too much memories. I told him that he might not like it cos nomis didn't like it. But it turned out that he was really really satisfied with his choice. He finished it in no time and chewed all the ice cubes in there as well. Wow...... I guess white people are not identical.

Miracles miracles miracles...... i went to see Colina today in the morning before class. The alarm was set at 7am so I could go to morning mass, then see colina, then go to class. However, I was completely trapped in that dream I had (I totally forgot what that was about though). I missed the mass, almost late for the appointment. The stomach was groaning after the appointment so I went to the bagel shop for my breakfast. And guess who I saw? yes, he was getting a bagel for breakfast as well, I think. I didn't talk to him because he would ask me what I was doing there. And I definitely didn't want him to know that I am a patient. So I kinda just lined up. He got his bagel and left. Man...I am so chicken. May be not, but I feel so chicken. I am such a chicken.