The day dreaming princess

People said Pisces day dreams a lot. I have never believed that. However, for these couple of days, I noticed that I have been doing that for all my life.

Day dreaming item:
I was kidnapped by a criminal. How am I going to talk to him, and try to analyze what he is thinking, and eventually set myself free? Cos I think he doesn't want to do that in the first place. There may be something I could do to untangle the knot in his heart, and emotionally support him.
Then I think of who is going to save me.

How ridiculous!

I still have this feeling of green apple green tea. I went to have some of gagt after having dinner with congee and thomas on thursday night. They are really great friends. I still remember what I experienced in my last year of high school. Congee is a friend who "send me the fuel in the cold winter snow". He wasn't part of the gang. And I appreciated his support all through these years. Although we don't see each other much, he is one of my best friends. I truly trust him.

So, green apple green tea. I think I am addicted to it now. I am afraid of lossing the smell, so I am drinking alot to restore the smell. But I am also afraid that I will get too addicted. I may not be able to get out of it. This gagt is very busy this week. I tried not to bug too much. But thank you for coming hehe. What am I writing....

The stupid tiger barb killed my rummynose and baby guppy. When I first looked at it, it looked like barb, which might attack. But I really want to take care of it for my uncle Roger. So, I hope it's not barb. Now that it attacked my fishes I know how stupid I am. How can I hope it's not barb when it looks exactly like barb?? Therefore, I performed my favourite punishment for him: isolation.

I was thinking of starting this african aquarium. It basically means I have to get rid of everything in my tank and starts from scratch again. I have to switch my tropical fishes to labs, red zebra..things like that.

Things to do for the switch:
Sell the guppies, rummynose, possibly the gourami, Neil
Get new african fishes like labs and cichlids
Get rid of most of my plants
Switch the gravels to crush coral
Get more rocks
That's about it.

So what am I going to do with my old plants? I think I am going to use the 10 gallon tank to grow my plants, with some tropical fishes may be.

Green apple Green tea.... hmm...yummm...

The smell of Green Apple Green Tea

It's time to talk about the delighted things happened in my life. It feels odd to talk about it because that doesn't happen very often.

I think I am done with the grief of the broken relationship I had with Eric. I saw him during the weekend. We talked like mutual friends. We played pingpong and watched half of the NBA playoffs game together. His family problem hasn't been resolved. It could take years, who knows. My prayers will be with them and hopefully they can pull through. I will still emotionally support Eric, but seriously, there is nothing I can do besides praying for them.

The grief ended. It's probably because there are some other things happened in my life which I think it's more important. School, work, career, health, vball, guys hehe. There are huge decisions to make for the first three things which I really refuse to think about it lately. Health, something big is coming up in these couple of months. I will have to take care of it later. Vball, I had a lot of fun last week. I am going to stay in Toronto for the summer and play vball like mad. This will be the first time I play competitive beach in here, so excited. Guys, hmm.. there aren't any guys around yet, but I can smell this taste of green apple green tea since saturday, the day that guy came to my place to fix my computer. I am feeling very comfortable around him. However, the ending of the heartache does not imply a complete abolishment of scars. I don't think starting a new relationship is a right thing to do, but I really enjoy this green apple green tea smell inside my nose. He is fun to talk to. I am glad to hear concerns from him sometimes. I look forward to building up this friendship with him. I wish him well. Ohohoh, he named my fishes:

Bob-red tailed shark
Neil-honey red gourami
Jerry and Terry -the clown loaches
Whitey and Marley -the corycats

I told him I am going to cry if one of the named fishes dies and it's all his fault.

I love this smell of green apple green tea.

Jesus loves me

With all the bad things happened during the week, I knew Lord was with me.

When I felt depressed, there was a beam of sunlight coming out from the clouds.
When I felt downhearted, he sent his messenger, Pat, to me and told me that he loves me and I am not alone.
When I felt vanished, he sent me the guardian angel, I assumed it's Colin, to comfort me and to cheer me up.
When I felt distressed, he granted me peace by having me to say the Rosary.
When I felt apathetic, he sent me Nomis to spice up my life.

Don't I just love the way Jesus shows me his wonderous love? I am pleased. And I felt honoured to receive the calling, to be his sheep, to be taken care of.

A Complete Waste of Time

I can't believe it. I spent so much time in understand something that I really hate. And I spent so much time in doing the past exams. I did crap on the stupid genetics exam. It was crap, seriously. It was a WASTE of TIME! My neck and back are hurting so bad because of massive study. I didn't have enough sleep, studying like there is no tomorrow! I practised with the past exams, and I was fine with them. The actual exam is sooooo hard. I can't believe it. I won't be able to graduate because of this stupid genetics course. I won't be able to get accepted to nursing school because of this stupid genetics course. I won't be able to enjoy this great summer because I will have to retake this stupid course in the summer!!! I am sooooooooo mad right now!!!

I need to go out, drinking! Get drunk! Scream! Yell at people I don't know!!

Colorgenics

You want to be regarded as an exiting and interesting personality able to persuade others to comply with your beliefs and ideas. You are charming and able to influence other people who come into your sphere of influence. You like mental stimulation and you are the sort of person who is prepared to 'try anything once'. Your confidence is so much so that others are often swept away by your enthusiasm.

Most people are conditioned by their environment and you are no exception. You are an extremely emotional person - so much so that 'the wrong word' can lead you to tears. You feel other people's pain. You feel the need of sympathetic relationships and a pleasant work environment in order to develop and grow. You are an impulsive, loving individual with a great deal of inherent feeling.

You feel truly deprived - not getting your fair share, but you have accepted the fact that that is the way things are at this time and that it is prudent to let matters slide and not hit your head against the wall -so conform and agree for a while. Accept the situation - nothing can last forever.

You are an emotional, sincere and impressionable individual experiencing frustration and unnecessary stress. You vehemently resist any form of pressure from outside sources, insisting on your independence as an individual. You want to be a decision maker - to make up your own mind without interference. You wish to be able to draw your own conclusions and arrive at your own decisions. You detest uniformity and mediocrity as you want to be regarded as one who gives authoritative opinions. Your favourite expression could well be that 'I may not always be right but I am never wrong'. You're a perfectionist and even though you may feel that the other person's point of view may be right, you find it extremely difficult to admit that you could be wrong.

You are greatly impressed by individuality and have interest in people who have outstanding qualities. You try to imitate those people that you admire and their characteristics, hoping that you will be able to display similar qualities in your own personality