Reeeeeally Good friends

It's Monday night, volunteering night. It was a shock to hear that Colin's gonna leave by the end of June. Then I thought, Colin, Miguel and I are gonna be at 3 different countries by September. And when's the next time we're gonna meet again?

They are really nice people, a soon to be MD Newfy and a Spanish PhD, befriend with a chink, what a weird combination. But it worked out just fine. Colin has always been there whenever I have "stories" for him. He encourages me every single time when I feel down. He made me feel competent enough about my future career. He's the best. He's such a good listener, a good friend, a friend who shares my worries all the time. Miguel is so funny all the time. He loves the Korean restaurant I took him to. He invited me to visit Madrid. I appreciate with his hospitality. It's just so much fun to hang out with these guys.

Colin's gonna be at Newfoundland to continue with his study, possibly MD. Miguel got accepted to a research program in New York City. And I'm probably gonna move to Hong Kong. I really cherish this friendship with them. It will be nice if we could meet up for Hockey Night in Canada again!!! oh, and a slice of "Phantom" from Future.

Retreat planning....not easy

Haven't been this busy for a while. My schedule is packed!!! It came to a point that I had difficulty in finding room for myself to breath. Sometime I enjoy being busy, but not in this way though. I am exhausted.

I have never thought that planning a church retreat could be this hard. It really requires team work. In a way, I am glad I belong to part of the team. However, I didn't realize my task was actually pretty difficult. Doing research isn't one of my favourites job in my entire life. Nevertheless, I am still very willing to take on this job so I can learn a little more for myself. And I found out I have learned a lot indeed. More update on Youth Retreat later on.

Sleeping at 4am every night over the weekend wasn't FUN at all!!!

Loneliness --- from Morrie

From "Tuesdays with Morrie":

For loneliness: you let go, let the tears flow, feel it completely - but eventually be able to say,'All right, that was my moment ith loneliness. I'm not afraid of feeling lonely, but now I'm going to put that loneliness aside and know that there are other emotions in the world as well, and I'm going to experience them as well'--- detach

When I read this chapter of the book, it totally reminded me with the experience I had last year. Now I know, detachment could be the solution of getting out of that emotion. I let the tears flow but I did not let go. That's why more tears flow. The more the tears flow, the more I can't let go. It happened like a loop. I was too busy being afraid. I was afraid of the pain. I was afraid of the grief. I was afraid of the vulnerability that loving entails. So if you don't let the experience completely penetrate you, you won't be able to detach.

I can see this as my stage of maturation, a.k.a getting old.

Take him and bless him

Thank you Lord

for this precious creation thirty-ish ago,

on this very special day.
May your PEACE always be with him.
May you send the Holy Spirit to be with him always.
May he serve and praise you eternally.
May you lead him, guide him, keep him and protect him.

Problem: Partially solved

Wow, that was easy. Paying a visit to Fr Dan's was a great experience. Not only I had a chance to talk to Fr Dan, I realized Andrew lived there also. Therefore, I ended up chatting with both of them. That was one of the greatest experience I had in my life with people.

Although I am a girl in this seminary residence, I feel so welcomed. They tried to get to know me by asking question, while at the same time I didn't feel like I am the centre of attention. Whenever they started talking about something I wasn't familiar with, like people or experience, they stopped the conversation and explained to me first, before they went on. It's wonderful that I was actually involved at the dinner table. I was not an outsider. I guess that something I have been trying to seeking within my group of "friends", but it seems like I fail big time.

Although I didn't address the main problem there, I guess God has already sent me a clear message to me, and made me feel really comfortable to move on.

Thank you Lord.

I am still worried about his worries.

I will still keep him in my every single prayer.

I wish him the best of luck in everything.

Other than that,

I will live my life and he probably has a tougher narrower road ahead of him. That's how I know my prayers are very important for him.

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Talking about moving to HK, Andrew thought God may want to make His relationship with more internal than in here. Since I have been having external relationship with him, like serving him at church, YOSAC, volunteering..etc, he may want to get closer to me in heart. Then I was thinking, God really loves me that much, that He really wants to get closer to me? In my every prayer, I tell Him I can careless about the day ahead of me, just be with me in my every single bit of life. When there's happiness, let me praise you. When there's stress or difficulties, please carry me through. And that's all I need from Him.

Wow, he really love me that much to want to have a closer relationship with me internally?