Volleyball vs Life

People said university life is full of varieties. Although this is not my first degree, it still surprises me a lot when I walked through the podium on Monday. There were so many communities, clubs and societies available for students to join. Other than studying, getting into those social groups definitely adds different flavours to the plain university life.

In my head, I could only think of volleyball before I came here. Remember I have discussed with a patient about my life? Volleyball on Monday Wednesday Friday night, Spanish class Tuesday night, I have thursday night open for family and study. The patient asked "where are you gonna put in your social life? Like a boyfriend?" I said... sorry... no time for boyfriend here, or this person has to be as busy as I am. In fact, I am not intentionally looking for one. Anyhow, this patient knew that I love reading as well. So she sugguested that I should do the same as I was in Toronto, go to a coffee shop, order and Latte or Espresso, then read your novel quietly.

"Oh yes I am gonna do that for sure."

'WHEN ARE YOU GONNA DO THAT? LOOK AT YOUR SCHEDULE!!!'

She's right, I packed too many activities in my schedule, and most of them are volleyball.

Because I noticed that i couldn't live a normal life without volleyball.
Unfortunately, issues about volleyball came up. Not only it takes up most of my time after school, it also stresses me to another extent. It feels like my first year of tricampus volleyball. I definitely do not want to go through the same thing again, stress from volleyball leads the loss of focus in my academic work. Other than volleyball, there are other important things which dominate my life as well. A support group is what I am looking for, and I totally found that group on Monday, or I should say, He found me while I am in trouble. But then it also requires a certain type of commitment. Don't get me wrong here, I am more than willing to commit to You. But this is like Your first sign for me. Plus You told me about playing volleyball somewhere else without taking up too much of my time.

Don't know if it's the coffee, or the pressure for being a student leader in lab today, there's anxiety in tummy during dinner time with YanYan, after I told her about the idea of discontinuing varsity volleyball. Volleyball and Quitting should never come together in my mentality. Unbelievably, this is happening. So I will leave it up to You to tell me what to do.

Injure me, for I am stupid, need something as obvious as possible.

The answer was pretty obvious, without injury.

Thanks for protecting me.

I know what to do, but

... ... giving up volleyball ... ...

for a person who's that aggressive and competitive like myself

...... this is a first ......