The Da Vinci Code

Someone was reading "Angels and Demons". I thought, may be it's time for me to finished up my half done "The Da Vinci Code". Since I did the first half almost a year ago, I had to start all over from the beginning to refresh my memory. I could not put down the book once I started. And now, I am almost done, it's time to go to the bookstore and take a look at "The angels and demons", the next book I am going to read.

I walked over to the magazine section, reading 'bout the stem cell research in National Geographic. I was planning to buy the magazine since it gave almost full explanation about the history and the research itself. Then I walked over to the anatomy section looking for some neuroanatomy reference for ANA300, and I've found none. After that I browsed around at the religion section where I found great books about PJPII. I wish I could own "the wisdom of PJPII" but it's like 18 bucks. I will just go there to read it and wait until it's on sale.

I kept walking after reading "the wisdom of PJPII". Then I saw titles like "the Holy Grail", "Mary Magdelene...", "the Da Vinci Code Decoded" etc. I wouldn't be surprised if there were like one or two books focused on the background of the Da Vinci Code, but there were at least more than ten books, talking about the Holy Grail, Leonado Da Vinci, the Last Supper, Priory of Sion, mostly the research and historical background of the novel. I was like holy shit...so many books. Are they just doing that to attract readers, or to support Brown's ideas to create controveries against christianity, or to clarify the Da Vinci Code is strictly a fiction? I didn't really read the books but just by flipping around it, some authors leaned towards christianity clarifying some plots in the book while some were talking about the historical group, Priory of Sion. Although the Priory of Sion is apparently the "good guys" in the book, I highly suspect what exactly this secret organization actually does in reality. I was shocked when I first read the relationship amount Mary Magdelene, the Holy Grail and Jesus Christ. What would actually happen if there are historians who do research about the Holy Grail and the Priory of Sion, trying to reveal to the world about what was written in the novel? I definitely have no doubts about my faith, but some people out there are actually have some sort of evidence to destroy it? Isn' that scary? shoot man..... As a matter of fact, Priory of Sion really does exist, and there are historians doing research on the Holy grail.

Now I have problem in finishing the last 60 pages of the novel. I feel like I am a betrayal of my church, feel like doing penance because of this book.

Canada Day Weekend

Canada day weekend was grrreat. The weather was nice enough to carry out the tourny, although it was a little too windy. At one point, we were just playing against the wind, didn't feel like we were playing vball at all. I had fun overall. The Connex A games was just crap. But we played an amazing game vs MTL free masons. They were a very good team but we played up to their level. It felt sooo good although we lost. We did good defense, asuka was executing while I blocked the heck out of them LOL Hey I got really nice tanning here. God, I look so nice right now....just wait for a couple more days....my skin is gonna peel....eww..

When excitement was over, I had to come back to life and studied for the exam. I was so nervous cos I spent almost the whole weekend having fun. Justin was supposed to meet me on sunday. He didn't show up. But he told me that he was going to meet Brian and Nathaniel at the lab on monday morning. I went there on Monday morning, only Brian was there. We met, talked a little, talked about the arches of the foot, plantar ligaments...... Until Nathaniel came, I studied the head neck region. The best part was the group study with Andrea and Nathaniel. I learned so much from them cos they made their own notes...not like me...studying without organizing it. Thanks Andrea and Nathaniel, and Brian of course. What the heck is the problem with Justin??? I was talking to Richie today. Richie said some people are weird like that. He told me to confront him, like "do you have a problem with me or what?" We'll see. If it comes to a point when I feel I can't take it anymore, I may do that. Just hopefully I wouldn't yell lol.

The test today was okay. I was a little nervous though. I was jumping and stretching around as usual. Everybody looked so intense, so my behavious looked pretty weird. Anyways, MC was a little tricky, as usual. The practical was okay, damn..got the nasal palate wrong.

What's wrong with people these days?

I don't know if it's my problem or what? People are weird as hell lately. They all looked stressed and pissed off.

First of all, Colin didn't show up for volunteer last night. I was left alone to deal with the weirdos. A family member of a chinese patient came up to me and complaint about her life. She said living with her mom was so difficult, plus her mom didn't speak english. She lived an hour away from the hospital so it was hectic for her to travel. I mean I understand what she was trying to express but saying it three times made it really annoying. I didn't say anything besides "elderlies are like that in general" which I think it's true. You just have to be more patient with them. And she complaint about the family doctors didn't listen to their hearts underneath the shirt, comparing to the doctors in HK, the doctors in HK were better. Sounds EXACTLY like my mom. Again I didn't say anything. Then she's like you have so much patience, you're gonna be a good nurse. WEird.

Then when I was talking to a visitor, a doctor rushed out and said "i need your help, do you want to come and help me? you are doing something more than dealing with patients." I was like...okay, I followed him. He actually wanted me to stock up the equipments at fast track area. He went up the the charge nurse and said she was gonna help me out. So, the charge nurse didn't agree but the doctor wanted me to do. I knew this wasn't my job but if there wasn't anybody doing it, I don't mind to stock up the gloves and stuff. Plus, it wasn't that busy out in the waiting area. I ended up getting trapped in the conflict between the doctor and the charge nurse. Omg.... I don't know what I am supposed to do. I think the doctor has a point. If everyone was so busy and I wasn't doing anything, why wouldn't the nurse let me help out a little? But that will violate the boundary of the PCA's job.

Another weird thing. What the heck happens with Justin, my classmate? He just completely stopped talking to me. We were in the same lab. I was trying to study with him. Then all of a sudden, he's like ignoring me. I didn't do anything to him. All we did together was lunch. Can anybody explain to me what happen? What? New rules on earth? Friendship can only last one month for me? Then we can't talk to each other no more?

More weird things.... Auntie joe... don't even want to talk about it. It's too weird and too sad. I wish someone could tell me what I have done wrong. Ya I have met some new friends lately, see how they are going to ignore me again in a month!

The End of Days

I went to Auntie Teresa's place and watched the End of Days on TV. Although the story was not true in life, it was excited until Satan actually turned into a scary monster. I really didn't like that part because Satan is evil in heart. The audience should be able to feel the darkness instead of visualizing it. All in all, I don't think Satan is a scary monster. It may just look like any of us, with an evil heart, like that actor. Satan does everything to separate us from God. And sometimes, we are really mentally weak enough to believe him. That tells the reason why this world is so dominated by this power of darkness. I am frightened sometimes because I am only human. I lost hope because it seems like there isn't anything I could do to change that. But the priest in the movie told us to have faith. Only when we have faith, we can beat the power of evil, the power of darkness.

Yes, I am weak. I know what's wrong but I still want it. I hate the fact that I am not going to see him online anymore, never. I hate it. We completely evapourated from each other's life, but can you also vanish from my mind?

Decisions Decisions Decisions

I haven't been writing lately simply because I am dead lazy. Also, I really should stop complaining and get real.

How to get real? My parents called me the other day if I wanted to go to Australia for further studies. I actually did some research by myself but Australia wasn't my priority. However, now that they talked about it and said that they had some friends over who can help me in enrolling the programs there, I thought more about it. I mean that could happen if things work out. So, now I really have to think of what I want to do for the rest of my life. It's not a decision that could be made in a couple of days. That involves a lot of research and experience with professionals. I want to be a RMT, nurse or physiotherapist.

I went to a RMT school today and the program really attracted me. That person made me to feel that I was a very good candidate for their school because of the degree I earned and working experience. However, nursing school is really something that I want to do for the rest of my life. RMT earn me a decent salary, nursing earn me a life time job. Now how about physio? It's kinda in the middle of the previous two. I could earn a decent salary, job security and I don't have to work shifts like nurses do. The only thing is I know i like the job nature of nursing but still not sure about what I am supposed to do as a physio besides teaching ppl to do exercise in order to get full recovery and increase range of motion after the lack of movement because of injuries.

Decisions Decisions Decisions