Being a daughter

So my parents are gone. Everything goes back to normal. It was father's day on sunday, so I got some little gifts for my uncle Herbert and uncle Roger. Both of them are happy and I am glad that they are happy. I received an email from Uncle Roger on monday. He said thank you and it's his honour and pleasure to have me as his daughter, and the bottom says 'love dad'. I almost cried. Although it's just a simple sentence, it's so touching. I am pretty sure Uncle Herbert feels the same but he just doesn't say it. But wow, I have never read a letter or an email with 'love dad' before. I can't believe that's how much they love me and appreciate me as a daughter.

I am not trying to compare anything here but I really feel something that I have never experienced before. I always think that I will be so happy if my parents are proud of me, if they are happy to have me, or appreciate me as their daughter. My own parents are proud of me because I finished university. They came over for my graduation. I was happy. But the talks made me feel that they want more than that. They are not appreciated with what I achieved and they expect more. People always say they just love me in a different way. But shouldn't I be feeling the love from them? Fine, it's okay to have expectation on me, but I don't think I will be able to reach them, cos I don't think I will do an MBA. What the point of comparing me with other people's kids? Do I really have to follow everybody else's footsteps?

See they are not proud of me, and they don't appreciated what they have at all, and they want more and that's why they are pushy and that's why I fricking can't live with them. They will say "oh if you do this and that, you will be more proud of yourself." Does this sentence even make sense? They will be more proud of me but why can't they just be thankful that I fricking finished the tough work at University? Did they ever know how much I suffered to get the stupid degree?

"I am sorry dad. I know you appreciate me and you are proud of me already. You make the options opened for me to choose whatever I want to do. I know you are more of an understanding person. I should just change the 'they' above to 'she'. I love you dad."