Deja vu

The best way to remember everything that I thought of, is to WRITE THEM DOWN. I read when I have spare time these days. However, I didn't pick up the attractive Harry Potter today, but a pen and a paper, writing whatever I thought if. I can't believe I wrote that much. It was almost two pages before the day ended.

I hang out with a friend who is about to move to the States. And then I found out......well...ya. So anyways, I can so correlate this friends with my ex, my ex ex to be precise. I wouldn't say they have bad habits, hm..but annoying. His attitude is too much like him, trying to pretend that they are cool. Phrase like "who cares?" sounds almost too familiar. Trying to be a gentleman which was intentionally done to make me notice. Trying to express the annoying feeling towards his ex. Physically, like hanging his right arm on the top part of the car door when sitting on the passengers' side, tapping his finger(s) on the table, scratching this head in public, touching (may be I should say rubbing..eww)his feet when someone's around, resting I-II phalanges on the chin talking like an expert, saying "you was". Some of these are normal, but this combination, too too too familiar. The way they talk is basically identical.

Riding the rocket on my way to work, I was thinking about the patient from yesterday. A little judgemental on my side, may be. First of all, who am I to judge if a patient can afford the treatment. Then, who am I to judge if the patient really needs the treatment or not. Most importantly, who am I to judge if it's worth it for the patient to pay that amount of money for a treatment which the necessity of the treatment is waited to be determined? But I am sympathetic. What if everything doesn't work out well? Then this patient will end up spending a big portion of his/her income towards ---- nothing.

Today's horoscope from metro:
Take someone off a pedestal now. A man makes a fuss over a happy female. Your self-esteem is about to get a boost.

The last comment is very true. Since the doctor told me she received a lot of good comments about me from the patients. I bet she is happy. Then really boosted up my self-esteem, a lot.