Second thought

Again and again, Ihad doubts about the decision with nomis, cos i still think of him... a little lot...

Therefore, I was wondering, why did I do that to torture myself? Did I make the right decision? Sometimes, I regret because of the depression (a little) inside. But on MOnday, something reminded me about what happened that night, the night when it happened.

It was my guardian angel. I used the hair straightener (the hair iron) to straighten my hair that night. And I burned myself a little. That burn was from my guardian angel, sarcastically saying, "Do you wanna know how hell feels like? THERE." In hell, I wouldn't be burned for just one spot of my finger, but my whole body. That was scary enough to drive me away from the deadly sin.

It has been a couple of months. It seemed like I forgot about the pain and had second thoughts about the decision of righteousness. Here comes the guardian angel again, "Let me remind you something, like what's gonna happen if you turn away from God, choosing the path to fire, darkness and punishment."

And here you go, a blister at my left II proximal interphalangeal joint.