Drained with green apple green tea

I promised nomis to give him back rub because of my stupidity and his back pain. So I was going to visit his place at around 10-ish.

My sis called me at around 10pm and asked me out for dinner. Of course I am going with her cause I was so hungry. Then nomis called 5 mins later. I would have to call him back after I am done eating. (omg, i am really having a problem in putting these into words.) During the day, I thought he wasn't going to call, cause..i don't know...just don't think he's going to call. But he actually called me at 8-ish.

Okay, by the time I was done with dinner, it was already 11:45pm. I gave him a call. He told I can come if I still want to. Of course I wanna, cos it's him and also I owed him a back rub. So I went. We talked a little before the rub. We talked about the reason why I made him feel like a zoo animal. I was glad that he wasn't mad at me anymore. Then we went into his room, while giving him a back rub, I told him about my problem with my parents lately. The conversation went smoothly. After the massage, we were still talking but he looked a little tired. Then I said I was going to go. But he offered me to stay. This is the first mistake. I didn't know what I was thinking. I told Sandra I just wanted to befriend him. And I didn't notice that, a friend cannot stay over at another friend's place.

He approached and hugged, thanking me for coming over for the massage. He started kissing me. I didn't expect things went that fast. He said I am hot and sexy. Obviously, I am just sexually appealing to him. I asked him if he always does that to other gal friends. He told me he doesn't usually have a girl in his bed, but it's you that I like.

I was trying to take it easy. I didn't know what's going on. I like him, otherwise, I wouldn't want to stay over. In the morning, I was leaving. I thought I was just going to go, and said goodbye to him. Surprisingly, he approached me hugged me tight and kissed me again. I didn't say a single word, except see you later.

See how screwed up I am?