don't know what the title should be

Today, I finally understand Eric's feeling of shame. Things happened. It's so sad that you really want to share with someone. However, it is too shameful to talk about it. That's exactly how I feel right now. I look at myself, it's too pathetic that I don't want other people to know about that. I am extremely upset today. However, I really don't want to talk about it.

Sometimes, I wonder why people make promises if they are not going to do it.

I almost had the guts to tell tommy, but I stopped after he told me what he was going to do tonight.

Let's face it and stop lying to myself.
Actually, I think I better keep lying. I will be happier this way.

And girl, you should now understand why blind people are more sensitive than open-eyed people. Because they talk to you and sense your feelings, not by looking at you. Just like most of my oversea friends, although I have never admitted it, fei lam knows how I feel.

Shit, this is too sad to talk about. I should stop right here. May be someday, when I feel better, I could talk about it. Right now, I just can't. But I will remind myself what to do in order to feel better.