Happy Easter

It was Good friday yesterday. I had a relatively good day since I spent zero minute on my school work. I was glad that I did my reconcilation yesterday. I met with Eric, my ex, for dinner last night.

I wasn't going to do the penance yesterday. I was struggling so bad. I didn't know when to do and what I am going to say. Alice asked me if I have done it for this easter or not. I said no. Then I decided, why not today. I was at the church and I had time. So I went. That was one of the most amazing feeling I have had. I was so nervous before, but I felt relieved afterwards. Fr Elliot was so nice and he made me to believe that God forgive my sins. He don't only forgive us, he cleanse us that's why he created this sacrement for us. I am so sure that God just show me his wonderful love through him. He welcome me home by open his arms to embrace me. Thank you. Thank you so much.

I met Eric for dinner last night. It was our first reunion after the break up. It actually went good. It was supposed to be my birthday celebration. Whatever, after the whole day of fasting, I had a nice Jap dinner with him. He changed his hair style, looked completely different. I asked him some important questions. I asked if he was willing to tell me if he moves on to start another relationship, and if he was going throw out everything I gave him. Yes and No respectively. Then I asked, whether he wanted to know if I am going to start a new relationship. Of course he wants to know lol. Well, then I felt good after those questions. I am so glad we met. I am getting more familiar with this friendship feeling with him. I feel like I don't want to be with him anymore. Again, like what I said to Richie, I feel comfortable with the friendship we build up. And I don't want to go any further than this.

And you know what's funny? When we left the Jap restaurant, we walked by a group of guys. Eric walked first and I followed him. I heard one of the guys said, "That guy doesn't deserve her." I was like, what the heck? How could people make comments like that? But that feels good lol.

I couldn't meet that patient since he showed up late in the afternoon. However, he made another appointment on tuesday, which I am going to miss him again. Hey guy, I am working on wednesday, friday and saturday!!!!