Spring's almost here

I can't believe it. I was that tired. I typed up the whole thing, then I accidentally hit the close button. Have to do it over again, i will keep it brief, since I can't really open my eyes now.
Let's do it in point form:

1, Long winter is really depressing. I thought after we hit March 21st, we will have nice spring. However, we have a little snow today. Don't worry, we will have a great great summer. I have been starting planning what I am going to do in the summer. So excited. Man, anywhere but Hong Kong please.

2, I think I have reached the "I don't want to talk to my ex" stage. He has been dragging me down for the last couple of months. I was emotionally disturbed. Although I am still passing, my marks are crap. I can't blame everything on him, however, he is part of it for sure. I don't know what to do with him. When I was with him, I always feel that he is the best I could get. However, after spending some time with Richie, I know that, someday, somewhere, somehow there will be a guy who cares about as much as he DID.

3, Special thanks to Eric S. After talking to him on Saturday night, I felt better. Not only he has the patience to listen to me, he cares and tries to help me with the problems. I am starting to feel that there are people that I don't aware of who care about me. I should start to use my sense of feeling more, and believe less on what I see and what I used to feel.

4, Me and Richie have been great lately. I think we both agree to be friends. He introduced this girl who is crazily in love with him right now. It's great to see them together although i don't quite agree Richie's theory behind it. He still hopes that girl is me. He is trying to show me that he is a romantic guy, and trying to make me think that "i could've been that girl". I may have problem in expressing myself, but I know how confortable I feel when I am around him, I don't want to get involved in a relationship right now. I don't want to ruin our friendship because of that, some vulnerable stupid mistake. I wish we could be a pair of friends who can share everything in life, jokes around and help each other out when we have problems. And he said I am the only girl he wants to but couldn't get so far.

5, Today, I know I am not meant to be a nurse. I just stayed up for one night, and I feel like my body is too fragile to handle it. Seriously, I feel it. I know I am putting a lot of stress on my body. And I know that if I mess up my biological rhythm, I could be pretty screwed. This kind of stress may lead to some severe situation. So, being a nurse may not be an option for me, and I have to accept that. What am I going to do?

6, Matt has been sick from Monday. Poor Matt!! Hopefully he will get better. Prayers with Matt and Pope's health.

Eyes are 3/4 closed. Have to sleep