Screw School and go on Vaccay!!!

Starting from tomorrow, Ross, my coworker will be gone to Europe for his brother's wedding. I will be working alone. It's going to be super busy. Hopefully we will be able to pull through. I know Matt and Christina will be helping. Omg, Matt is so nice. Last week I thought he was mad at me because I talked about my personal issue with some patients. I thought I wasn't supposed to do that. I saw him standing outside the room. I didn't know he was listening intentionally, I stopped talking once I knew he was there. I bet he was wondering why I talked to the patients instead of him. Well, I wish I could, but no matter how nice he is, he is still my boss. I don't know how to see him as a friend who could make me to share personal life with him. He says he is going to invite all of us to his cottage one weekend. I am looking forward to that. Because now he knows I like canoeing, and so as he.

The stress from school is still dragging me down so much. Right now I am not worried about Eric anymore. I am more worried about my stupid genetics course. I hate it so much, I have absolutely no interest in it. And I am doing crap on it. I will be so pissed if I couldn't get accepted to nursing school just because of this course. man...can't believe it. I always think that I don't have enough time to finish my work. It comes to a point that I hate myself because I need to spend time to feed myself. And on the volunteer night, three different people asked me what I was going to do after I graduate. I was trying to talk about it patiently. However, when it came to the third person, I said nursing school blah blah blah...and you know what, I really don't want to talk about it. It's killing me. I can't take it anymore.

I need a vacation. Someday, I thought of Fr Roland. Then I wanted to go to Rome to visit him. However, I don't know if he is going to be in Rome this summer. I want to visit Rome, the Vatican City, home of the Roman Catholics, well also, haven't seen Fr Roland forever. I want to talk to him. But the air ticket is like 688 the cheapest. Plus I think I am going to Vancouver for the tourny. I will be spending a lot of money this summer. What should I do?