The change in me

Ever since Mike called me Saturday and told me that he has already seen the change in me these three weeks, I couldn't stop thinking about it. The most scary thing is, I can feel it too.

I am growing.
I am getting more matured. I deal with things differently.
I am turning into someone else.
I am scared the fact that I may not be myself anymore.
I used to be nice and polite, but I hanged up on someone through the phone that night. I have never done that before in my life.
I talk a lot, like alot, I can't stop. I am turning into a noisy person.
I am rough. I don't ask people to help me anymore. I tell people to help me.
I feel heartless. I swear, if this Osadetz thing happened before, it would have broken my heart. But I don't feel anything right now.

What is wrong with me?

This Osadetz thing ...... although I heard a lot of bad comments about him, I think he is a nice person, a little strange may be. I don't know. I actually don't know him that well. But the way we talked and seeing him as a vball player, I only have positive comments about him. Anyhow, things happened, but I still don't hate him, even though I should, I wish him the best. I think he is doing this to avoid further damage. I wish him happy and a good fortune. I will pray for his lost soul, and send him my blessings.