Clubbing nite

We went to Inside last night for Heng's birthday. I didn't know I was invited. I just asked Mimi and she said that it's assumed that I am gonna go. I actually hesitated because the I had work the next day, plus, I don't know what's gonna happen again. But, the main point is, I just want to hang out with my friends. If they wanna go clubbing, then clubbing it is.

Although I wasn't that excited about clubbing anymore, I had to pick out a top to wear. I had troubles doing that, since I didn't have a lot of clubbing experience. So, I picked out a nice top, put on comfortable make-up, then I went. I like to put make-ups on. It's not like I look crappy w/o it. I felt like a model with it, looks pretty. Anyway, I went to Esther's place and met up with the guys before going.

Everything sounds fine until near the end.

This is my 2nd clubbing nite in my life time. Honestly, I had this frustrated feeling on both nights. There are more than one moment that I feel like I don't know what I am doing. I closed my eyes and started thinking. I just wanted to stop dancing and cried. I felt so lost, and sometimes out of the picture of "fun". The crying part didn't happen in the first night, probably b/c of Osadetz. I actually cried last night. I came out because I wanted to hang out with my friends, and all of a sudden they all disappeared. They abandoned me. What is the freaking point of going if I am by myself? I was left with the guys that I just met. At that moment, I wanted to go home. I probably shouldn't have come in the first place. I should just go get drunk and have a nice sleep, instead of shaking around with my swollen achillies.