Light of the world, Salt of the earth

My frustration of growing up ended with this phrase. After Fr. Siu talked about the opportunity to grow up after a challenge in yesterday's mass, I knew that I won't turn into something evil. I was so glad that I finally found the way of living. I finally found out the good side of growing up. Since I am a christian, there is always a unique way of living to honour the father in heaven. Yay, that's what I have been doing all the time. The change of lifestyle got me frustrated, for I didn't know what I was doing. Just remember the fruit of Spirit (Galatians 4:16-17), and I shall be fine.

Today is our one month anniversary of the break up. He said I turn into a person who laughs every two seconds. That's good right?

On saturday night, I was talking to him like a mutual friend. I guess I was less sensitive about his feelings, I told him about everything, including the 3am phone call and the Osadetz incident. He didn't have any problem with the 3am phone call because I was complaining about it. Then I went on to talk about Osadetz, except I didn't mention his name, since both of us know him. I didn't complain. I have to admit the fact that he is tall, cute and good vball player. Then all of a sudden, he said he didn't want to talk about it. He didn't want to know who he is and it's my own business, and he didn't need to know about it. Okay, he was upset. I stopped talking. I felt bad. It seemed like I hurt his feelings. Right, I definitely become less sensitive about his feelings. As I said before, I was talking to him like a mutual friend. Then he's like, "so two vball guy asked for your phone number?" I said yes. Well, too bad. I told him he was taking it too seriously, while I was not. I was laughing while we were talking. But as soon as he said he didn't want to listen to it, I stopped talking.

I start to listen to R&B and HipHop. Isn't that scary? I had this song stuck in my head while I was studying... soldier from destiny's child.